So many men would be so much more tolerable if they’d just go to therapy already
i was pretty sure for a while that a certain form of break out on my face was due to stress n now im basically convinced. cause it literally will pop up overnight if i was worked up over something lol shit it looks so bad ! why !!
im either going to stick with this through winter because it was awesomeeee in the spring n summer n fall, or im going to xfer to something else thats better, or im just going to quit … if i quit … im gonna take off at some point for a while … just go n travel whenever i can n try to be better on the in between ! FUCK !
still applying to stuff. still havent heard anything aside from that one call that they never got back to me on ?? idiots !
didnt do much today which was nice, but i still have so much stuff to go through n organize n get rid of in my room! so many clothes ! ahh !! shit !
done with steroid pack in a few days. prolly still wont drink for a while cept my medicinal beer for indigestion. i had HORRIBLE indigestion the first night into the pack n i just dealt with it caused i know not to drink on steroids and it sucked it hurt so bad ! but i can deal …
so. im assuming ill be stuck at this job through the year since its only 2 weeks away … meaning ill either be stuck here through the winter or ill … just quit ?? i really dont wanna lose the insurance and im about to get vacation time ! but shit i dont know if i can stay here !!!!!!!!! AHHHH!!!!!!!!!
!!! i am going on a cruise before winter is over ………….. er at least while its still cold here …. i GOTTA ! fuck this cold dark! ew ! hmm what else …i dont know
SHIT ! i want … OUT of this job ! i mean its true that the closer it gets to spring the more OK ill be but in the meantime ? walking around in the cold dark alone ? driving in circles ??? what the fucckkkkk!!!!!!!! AHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!
anyway if i have to stay i guess i will. shit.
halfway through my steroid pack! thinking about getting a massage … i need to do laundry….. n clean … i may nap. mall and xmas party tomorrow … lunch n saying goodbye to a friend who’s moving on friday … then work again ?? ew
men are so fucking stupid ?? like all the time ? and they dont even know why they are that way, and thats because they never have to be held fucking accountable for their shitty actions ! theres always someone fixing it or telling them its ok or some woman putting up with it ! and then when you call them out they are like ???? my god ?? mind blown ! no one has ever said this to me ! and from a woman! im so mad and so in love ! omg ! …. IDIOT !!!
heyo my blood work was normal ! still havent tried the inhaler n ill start the steroid pack on … sunday probably. meh
i got an inhaler to help with when i feel like i cant breath in all the way. n then i got a 6 day oral steroid thing to help with my back ? i guess ill try that next week … ehh also got a blood test done for my liver enzymes since i be drinking … lol
i got a call from a different department that i applied to but i missed the call n when i called back they werent there ? and havent called me since ? wtf jesus christ. im ready to do something different fuck.
sigh. trying to be more authentic and honest with people. its been going well i think. still managing to attract ridiculous situations. i met my friends brother for the first time and later that night he was crying n saying he loved me ?? like wtf manic bullshit is that. he msg me every day for a week n when i saw him again and didnt give him any more attention than anyone else he decided to say ok i cant love you cause youre not ready for me bye … lol … jesus
just cause im basically decent and non judgmental and friendly people think that gives them license to unload and project all their bullshit. grow up. ppl need therapy.
